What am I going to do?

O"What am I going to do?"  This is a question that runs in my head all day when I hurt. I ask myself how can I go on?  How much longer can this last?  

The answer to each of these is "I don't know". Life is so hard right now I am just trying to get from one moment to the next. One painful moment that hopefully will leave someday. 

This dark image below is of my left left. That contains my peeled flakes of skin that I scratched off on a 15 min drive. No blood or other grossness but just not bad skin underneath. But this was just one hand and wrist. I hate tsw and I need a break that lasts and heals. Please.