March 13 2015

March 9 2015

Clearing my phone.

I am terrible at this blogging stuff. But I have lots of tsw pics I need to get off my phone. These are not for the faint of heart. At least for me. They look terrible I cannot believe it's my skin. Life is hard. 

All of these photos are from March 4th when I thought it could not get any worse. But it has. 

Almost one year

I am in disbelief that after all this time I still hurt so much.  I cry all the time. I am having depression issues and issues with controlling my temper. I feel so bad all the time that I find myself lashing out becuase of this pain. When will this end   

300 days.

Today I hit day 300. I am terrible at blogging.

after the wounds on my legs heal up and stop being irritating, i want to buy myself a short mini skirt and pair it on night out with cute heels.

after the skin on my arm gets back to normal, i want to workout, and not have it hurt.

after the skin on my neck heals, I want to wear my hair down curled, I wear it up to not irritate the skin.

after the skin on my face recovers, i want to put my foundation on and full makeup, and lipstick, I only wear makeup on my eyes right now.

after everything is over, i just want to be able to enjoy a moment without fidgeting or feeling itchy. i want a good night sleep. i want to shower without feeling scared. i want to wake up without being afraid of what i’ll see. i want to be normal.

I started month 6 sunday. 5 months down.

This is such an emotional roller coaster. I am feeling better but since I am not feel in perfect I get distraught. This is so hard. Life will be so easy when this is over.

Last weekend, memorial weekend, we went to newport in our first trailer trip since January. It was nice. My parents came and my mom made all the food. I washed dishes one time all weekend.

Friday, the first day, I was peeling like crazy. My elbow was like old sandpaper. That slowed the rest of the weekend.  Following are pics I took outside our trailer in the sun. I am praying for healing.