My guiding light in this long walk with topical steroid withdrawal is my faith and Netflix. I have been watching and re-watching many documentaries on eating Vegan, clean eating, organic farming, and juicing. I am currently reading Crazy Sexy Diet by Kris Carr, I highly recommend it. She is a women diagnosed with cancer told she had to have radiation to survive and walked toward a holistic way of living. Her cancer is dormant, she lives an amazing life full of knowledge and real food. She writes in a way that is easy to understand, and no fluff.
Over 6 months ago I started her book, and had watched these same documentaries saying "I should try that", and my effort ended there. Now I have to do it. I have to clean myself up. I have not had red meat, or chicken for 2 weeks. I have lost 8 pounds. I hurt everyday, the itching and red skin on my arms, neck and face is now spreading to my stomach, and I cry every other day from fatigue and sadness. But I can do it. No one but me can beat this right now. I will clean myself up and will never trust nor use something just because a doctor says to. With prayer and my family I will defeat the most difficult thing I have ever faced in my life so far.
I will.
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