Trying to not get excited.

Here's why...

This photo was Taken in late June. 

I posted it on my blog on July 10. 

That same wrist today.

Please Lord Jesus help me get through this. 

I still flare at night. Still peel everyday. But it seems to be getting lighter. Please oh please. 

2011, withdrawal has begun

This is me in 2001 with red skin showing on my face.  In hindsight I probably would not have started withdrawal any sooner as at least now my kids can help me little. It is still hard but I will do it.  My daughter is now 4, she was 2.5 months here.

Month 20

Into the second week of month 20 and I feel better. Still tsw all over but it seems lighter. Praying he healing continues. 

Better than yesterday

OI have never known pain like I have with tsw. I have had two babies via c section. I have dislocated my right elbow once a year since high school (old reoccurring injury). I have had sunburns cramps and migraines galor. But tsw... It's hard. 

In natural daylight 

Redness more evident in artificial light

This is my face on a tsw good day. Not flared. Itchy and peeing but acceptable. You can see the dark parts, around eyes and mouth. Those are my worst spots. The areas that flare. The lighter spots on my cheeks are what I see healing with faster. But I will take today's pain over yesterday. Please let the healing Continue. 

My hands and arms are still my worst spots as a whole though. 

What am I going to do?

O"What am I going to do?"  This is a question that runs in my head all day when I hurt. I ask myself how can I go on?  How much longer can this last?  

The answer to each of these is "I don't know". Life is so hard right now I am just trying to get from one moment to the next. One painful moment that hopefully will leave someday. 

This dark image below is of my left left. That contains my peeled flakes of skin that I scratched off on a 15 min drive. No blood or other grossness but just not bad skin underneath. But this was just one hand and wrist. I hate tsw and I need a break that lasts and heals. Please. 

Almost to month 20

In a few days I will start month 20 of tsw. And for the first time since I started I can say I have been feeling better. I had a terrible go since there year that I feel peaked in May. My pain is more localized and does not last all day. I am praying this continues. I hope to blog more about supplements, oils, and other tools I am using to heal... Soon. 

Long.

What is long?  The amount of time I have been hurting. Wow. That's sad.